I have now had the tumour removed(wide local excistion of the breast) and some of my Lymph removed(sentinel node Biopsy) to test how far the Cancer may have gone. The surgery went well but i had a bad reaction to the radioactive liquid and blue dye that helps the surgeon find the sentinel nodes. It made me very ill and i looked like a ‘Red Tomato’ for days and couldn’t keep any food or water down. I am ok now and at home getting stronger. I now have to wait for 2 weeks before i get the results of the Surgery to see what treatment i need next and to give a name to the kind of Breast Cancer i have.
I am feeling stonger but still have the odd hour where i cry and keep asking why i have to have this?. I guess this is normal and when i have days like this i hold on to all the good friends i have in my life and the love that is in my life and i feel so much more stronger. I am scared about the treatment and what i may have to face and even the thought of ”How long will i live?” has crossed my mind and i even started to write letters for all those i love in my life and those that mean the world to me. I then decide to pull myself together and shout at myself for thinking that way! i know i have gone through alot for my age and so if this is another battle then it is one i will win and fight until God decides he is ready . While i am at home i have started to write a Book for Young women with Breast Cancer because i feel that there is not alot of information out there for young women with this. I was on a ward with women alot older than me and i felt somewhat alone being the younger of them. I also pick up leaflets and again they are aimed at older women and not young. So this is my new aim! to write a book to help young women and make it as fun and helpful as i can. I want to write it like a Diary of the day i found out i have Cancer until the end of the treatment and i hope to give all the Money from it to Breast Cancer care. I think that this will help me know that from the dark comes good things and no matter what we face in life we can always make good of it. I love that old saying “If life gives you Lemons then make Lemonade!”
Again thankyou to my friends and dear loved ones for their love and support! your love and hugs and emails keep me going! ThankyouXX