I am so sorry to have to tell you that my cancer has now taken over many of my main organs and I have been told I will not be on earth much longer…I have been in hospital to control the pain and now the cancer nurses are coming into me to support me….I had some new pictures done a few weeks ago for my website and I am glad to be putting them on here very soon…please remember me like this with my hair and how happy I look….my spirit is strong so be happy for me….I will try and keep you updated.. whatever you hear please be happy for me and remember I have not gone far..my spirit is what is real my body was just my shell to live out my time on earth in…

My New pictures and updated site are going to let you see how happy I was and how I need you all to remember me..I am not scared just racing to leave things in order so that my time in spirit is a peaceful one….I love you allX

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It seems Like I have been away for ages! I have been really busy with working on new projects and new books. I have also been looking after my health and recovering from the cancer. It is one long battle but one I am winning! 

There have been many changes in my life and all good ones which have made me a better person and more happier. I have moved on from past hurts and negative energies and have met some really lovely people on my journey to a better life, people that have been on the same level spiritualy as myself. Life has taken a turn for the better and I have so much to thank God and Spirit for.

There will be a new Website coming soon, updated and with all new projects that I have been working on. The old Website seems like it is outdated! and so it is time the new one came to life just as I have myself. New, vibrant, and full of amazing and exciting pages. So please look out for this new site coming soon!

Love and Blessings X

Hope this finds you all well and happy. Firstly thank you so much for the support of my new book and I have good news about my third book due to be published in the near future. I am also writing novels now which seem to be very popular with potential publishers. My second book ‘A Walk On The Other Side’ has really done well and helped many people and this is what I dreamed of.  I always write from the heart and people have seen this and appreciated it. I will be updating the website soon as I know it is on my ‘to do list’ and needs updating to show the new work I am doing.

I am due for more surgery Tuesday and will update you on how that goes and what results I get back. I am so grateful for your love and support and the support of my family and friends who have helped me so much. I am blessed with people in my life who are sincere and humble and honest. I am blessed to be surrounded with love and happiness.

Again thank you for the many emails I receive and the positive feedback about my work, I read each email and promise to reply to you all in time.

Blessings and loveX

Easter time to me is all about the message of life after death. It proves we live on and can not die. Jesus was living proof to man; to show him that through his death and resurrection we do live on and survive death. There is no such word as death. Not only do we see the proof of life after though Jesus, but we see it also through the start of Spring and the new growth of trees and flowers after the Winter sleep. Nothing can die only live on in a new state. My book ‘A Walk On The Other Side’ gives the reader a glance into what I experienced in my near death experiences. It is a glimpse behind the veil of life; to reassure people about the existence of the soul.

Easter is a reminder of new life and new beginnings and I ask that your Easter will be filled with love and joy and the comfort of the fact that we survive death! X

Drown deeply in starry sparkling eyes
Bathe soothingly in the sea of romance
Float smoothly on curving water waves
Disappear the blues in aquamarine ocean.

Fly high across unlimited moonlit sky
Stray among stars in a faraway milky way
Glide towards galaxies of celestial lights
Let the troubles disappear in afar darkness.

Blissful whispers flow all over in the air
Moments of joy adorn the serenity of lives
Wondrous times harmonize every heart and mind
Existence of true love lasts forever-timeless.

Swiftly lead into raptures over divine true romance
Adorable smiles blooming like blossoms of red roses
Trail bewitching paths cherishing every amorous moment
United hearts surrender to the supreme power of love.

Love is not only about the love of partners in relationships; it’s about love between family, friends and the animal kingdom. On Valentine’s Day I give gifts to my family and pets to show them I love them and to express my feelings of love for them. Love is a powerful word and can change lives.  Love does not need money or fame love only needs an open heart that is willing to return that love.  Love is not about power it is about care and passion and understanding.  Many can abuse love and use it for their own gain; how many of us have had our hearts broken? and how many of us have fallen for the wrong person? ; many I would guess. I myself have been hurt in the past after falling for the wrong person and giving my heart only to have it broken, but I grew from that and it didn’t make me bitter only stronger and wiser. It didn’t mean I would never trust again, it meant I would become aware of my own feelings and love myself first before I gave love to a partner again.  I was going through the worst part of my cancer treatment when someone who I thought loved me decided to prove that I was wrong and decided to show me I was not worth their love. I was ‘down’ for a time but soon came back stronger and wiser and happier. I didn’t judge this person only felt sorry for them because they didn’t know what love is and it seems they have never experienced real love before, so when it was in front of them they had to ‘trod’ on it to prove it wasn’t right.  I am now a different person, I am still Charmaine with the big heart but I am now wiser, and before I give my heart away so easily I make sure that person is  loving like me. Love attracts love and that is so true! since giving that love to someone it came back to me through others love and I am now a strong happy person. The memory of that old love is fading and now holds very small meaning for me. I am asked often if I still have feeling for that person and I answer “no”. I hold happy memories in my heart of happy times with that person for me, but not for them. I am also asked how can you love and then not love; and I answer, “It isn’t about not loving anymore it is about learning to know when to give love and when someone plainly doesn’t want your love; its about learning to walk away when your love is not what they need”.

My new love in my life is caring and sharing and full of spirit, my new love does not need much only many cuddles and the occasional treat. My new love is my Yorkie called Basil and he has given me new hope and in many ways saved my life when I was fighting cancer. He would stay with me day and night and when I was in pain and cried he would try and lick my face until no tears fell. He showed me the real meaning of love and he has helped me to love myself again. In the future I may have room for a partner but for now I am so blessed with love from my pets and my little boy Basil, and from my family and amazing friends who shine their love even  on days when I have my mood swings!

Bless you all this Valentine and remember love is in everything you see around you that is good and makes you happy.XXX

I would like to take this time to wish you all a lovely and peaceful Christmas and a bright and light New Year. I always love to spend time with my family and friends this time of year and enjoy the Christmas cheer with those I love. I feel very lucky to have the family and friends I have and know that each year I am blessed to have them in my life. I feel their love and support around me and also want to  thank them for their support while I was having my surgery done.

My surgery went very well and I am now on the road to recovery and feel my old happy self returning each day. The surgery was hard to cope with and has taken me time to recover from but it is worth it now I see the end results. I am very blessed to have had a very gifted surgeon give me back what cancer had taken. Cancer seems the last thing on my mind now as I see a bright and happy future ahead of me. Each day is like a gift for me and each day gives me new hope and happiness.

This coming year will be busy as I plan my new books and start work on some new and exciting project I have planned. I feel blessed to have all this to look forward to and I know the New Year will hold more new and exciting things for me.

Let Christmas spread joy and light in all your hearts and homes and let your New Year follow on in that light.

Love to you allXX

 I will be going in hospital this coming month for my reconstructive surgery. This operation involves moving a large muscle (latissimus dorsi) and some overlying fat and skin from the back of my body. The flap and its blood supply are tunnelled under the skin just below the armpit. It is then put into position to make a new breast shape. The operation is referred to as a latissimus dorsi flap (LD flap).  It will be the final stage in my fight against the big C word. I feel like I have come so far from that first day I was told I had  cancer. This surgery will give me back what cancer has taken. The surgeon is a well known gifted man in his work so I know the end result will look good.

I again want to thank my family and friends for their love and support and for the many emails which have given me so much hope. I am greatful for them all.

Also just to remind you that my book is featured in the November issue (out now) of Soul and Spirit Magazine. My book is doing really well and is helping many people all over the world. I feel it has already done its job in many ways. In the new year I will be updating my website and telling you more about the exciting new work coming my way……

Blessings

My Book ‘A Walk On The Other Side’  will be featured in the November issue of Soul and Spirit Magazine. This book is helping many people and I am proud of all its work. I again want to thank you all for your emails and I do read them all and will do my best to answer you all .

 blessings Charmainex

http://www.nderf.org/    http://www.nderf.org/charmaine_m_ndes.htm These lovely people have put my story about my near death experiences onto their website. I am really greatful as they are leading people in this study. Thankyou to them and there will soon be a link to their website from my own.

I am so pleased with the feedback from this book so far and I know it will help so many others.